You can read Part 1 – Here.
The last thing I remember is being rolled out the room and my hubby giving me a kiss, followed by this….
I remember coming out of surgery and couldn’t stop my teeth from chattering. I don’t remember if I was cold or not but I do remember blankets being put on me. The next few posts are from when I posted on Facebook, so I’ll just be copying and pasting what I’d written on there.
Continue reading “Hysterectomy Part 2. *WARNING* Surgical pictures included in post.”
Cruising is an amazing way to just kick back, relax and not have to worry about too much. I start planning at least a year in advance, which gives me time to pay off the cruise, research excursions, the ports and buy booze. For this cruise, it was the hubsters first and my second. I chose not to do any excursions because I wanted him to get a feel of what a cruise would be like.
The only negative, was our stop in Nassau. A lot had changed since the first time I’d visited, and knowing this, I’d book an excursion should we ever visit Nassau again.
Overall, I’d like to say we had a wonderful time.
Time seemed to have ended way too soon, although I think a 5 day cruise is our limit at the moment. We had an amazing time and while there were a few hiccups (that’s life for ya) I would definitely sail on Carnival and Triumph again.
The only disappointing issue in Cozumel was not having the clear water at the island but that’s the chance you take, not only when traveling during hurricane season but mother nature can and does have a mind of her own.
There are plenty of things I would have done differently (like take pictures and videos the right way – LOL) which I will post about later on. I will also add the Funtimes and go more in depth about this cruise at a later time as well.
For now, here is Day One of our cruise. The rest are posted on my Youtube channel @ https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAux9dN6cqXooyxTE_CQ-gA
I will be adding “My 2nd Cruise” with the (new) hubster at some point!! I’m really hoping we (start to) travel more, whether state side or abroad. I look back at all the traveling I’ve done and can kick myself for never really stopping to take in the sights/sites. But anywho…
I’m not exactly sure how I was initially introduced to cruising but whatever the case may be, it has become something that I enjoy.
My first cruise was with my (late)husband. We drove from Oklahoma to Florida a few days in advance because we decided to make this an all in one trip. We stopped to see my family and then his which worked out because my (former) step-son was able to spend time with his grandparents and cousins.
It was only a 3 day cruise on Carnival Sensation and the port was Nassau, Bahamas.
With my (late)husband dealing with cancer, I spent a lot of time by myself exploring the ship. If he was able to hang out, he did so but I understood why he couldn’t, when he didn’t. I didn’t book any excursions for that reason (not knowing how he’d feel) but on the day we docked in Nassau, he was up to exploring.
When I was in middle school, a huge bump/lump developed under my right ear. I remember being so embarrassed and being made fun of it. My parents finally took me to the hospital and all I remember is being told it was some type of (benign) tumor and that I’d need to have surgery to have it removed.
The only memory that I have is waking up in the hospital with this tube placed inside of the incision(opening) under the stitches I had. At the end was a bulb that collected the drainage. Continue reading “Finally! A Name To My Disorder…”
Sometimes we truly do worry about the wrong things and people. Those things end up robbing us of the precious time we have to enjoy life and those around us…
On the die I day a lot will happen.
A lot will change.
The world will be busy.
On the day I die, all the important appointments I made will be left unattended.
The many plans I had yet to complete will remain forever undone.
The calendar that ruled so many of my days will now be irrelevant to me.
All the material things I so chased and guarded and treasured will be left in the hands of others to care for or to discard.
The words of my critics which so burdened me will cease to sting or capture anymore. They will be unable to touch me.
The arguments I believed I’d won here will not serve me or bring me any satisfaction or solace.
All my noisy incoming notifications and texts and calls will go unanswered. Their great urgency will be quieted.
My many nagging regrets will all be resigned to the past, where they should have always…
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This was supposed to have been written before the new year. But better late than never I suppose…
There’s really no way to (perfectly) describe the sadness I (still) feel of my mom’s passing. It’s even harder when the holidays roll around. However, I was determined to make the most of Christmas for the sake of my (step)children.
Reality started to set in the day before Christmas. The hubster put on some Christmas music but deep down I was wishing he’d stop playing it. Some of the songs triggered memories – some good and some bad. The bad meaning that my dad didn’t care if it was the holidays or not when it came to him physically abusing my mom. But my mom being who she was, through her bruises and pain, always prepared a nice hot breakfast Christmas day (if he beat her the night before) and made sure we had a pretty decent Christmas as kids. I ended up crying in the bathroom. I was happy when the hubster finally stopped playing Christmas music.
I wrote a post on Facebook in memory of my mom – the day before Christmas and I’m still a bit sad at that point. I was eating cereal that had cranberries in it and was removing them as Im not a fan of cranberries. About 6 minutes after posting the memorial to my mom, I came across a cranberry that, to me, looked like a heart. I swear in an instant it seems, a sense of calmness washed over me. I could feel my mommy’s presence and so I decided to pull myself together. Yes, I do believe in (guardian) angels.
The hubster needed some new clothes, so we headed over to the mall Saturday afternoon. While going into JC Penny, I noticed there was a Sephora. Talk about overwhelming cause who knew there was so much to choose from?!? I’ve only shopped online and since I knew exactly what I wanted, it never crossed my mind to check out the makeup
I’m not much of a makeup wearer but when I do use it, I go for a more natural look. Thank goodness there was an awesome consultant that helped me out in choosing what to buy. I ended up changing lipstick color though from the one in the picture. The hubster said the original color I’d chosen, looked blue and made my lips looked weird. I also returned the liquid foundation and exchanged for eye shadow instead. Plus I got some money refunded.
I knew that eventually I’d end up needing a hysterectomy due to the constant pain and heavy bleeding I was dealing with. I understood why my gyn suggested I try other options such as a uterine ablation because of the risk factors due to the multiple surgeries I had previously. However, after doing research and learning that it may not even work, I made the final decision to have a hysterectomy. The date was set for July 22nd. First I had to go on Lupron in hopes of shrinking the multiple fibroids I had. I only had to take the one shot of Lupron and then the Lupron pills for about 3 weeks I believe.
The night before (July 21st) my surgery, I packed my bags with one of my favorite books to read – Winnie The Pooh. Id rather eat dirt than drink milk of magnesia EVER again and then finished my night with a big ole bowl of butter pecan ice cream. I also packed away my pads and tampons considering it would be the last time I’d need them.
SURGERY DAY!!!
We arrived pretty early – around 5am I think. I was able to talk with the anesthesiologists and made it known – again – to not give me morphine as I have a very bad reaction to it. Then it was just a matter of waiting to be rolled in once my doctor arrived.
The last thing I remember is being rolled out the room and my hubby giving me a kiss…
I was determined to do a 5k and finally completed one. I’ll be doing my 2nd one in Feb/2016. I had a lot of fun and having the proceeds go to a local charity made it that more awesome’r. It may have taken me a hot minute hour to do but I finished….Woohoo!!
I wasn’t too sure about wearing a tutu but did so anyway. Glad I did because I wasn’t the only one who wore one!
A Wildflower Heart 